Thursday, January 10, 2008

My Mom!

Today my Mom had to have her port replaced. This has been the cause of a few of her panic attacks in the past. She was so worried about the portogram, a test to see why no blood will come out. Turned out the test was no big deal. Replacing the port went well. They replaced it with a double port. This way they can give her two things at once...chemo and nutrients or other things she needs. That was a really good part of the day. On the other hand she was not doing well. It is the worst I have seen her. It was truly heartbreaking. She was disoriented to the point of saying nothing you could make sense of. She mentioned some strange things that freaked me out. She doesn't want to take any pain medicine. She thinks if she doesn't she will be able to come home. What I don't think she realizes is that they are sending in hospital hospice to her soon. At this point I don't think she realized she was somewhere she didn't want to be. She is too much for my Dad to take care of, at home as she need around the clock care. She is in pain and knows to some degree she is not mentally with it. She is very frustrated with both things (and trying to hide she is in pain). Please pray for my Dad and myself and everyone giving her care. I am waiting on the virtue of healing to flow from the Father to her body.

18 Comments:

At January 10, 2008 at 10:26 PM , Blogger If you can see what I see said...

I will call you tomorrow afternoon for sure sweetie!!!!

Stay strong! Keep the faith!! Lifeline baby...lifeline!

 
At January 10, 2008 at 10:43 PM , Blogger Trish said...

Oh! Amber...
I hurt for you all! Your Mom and I have been friends for almost 40 years! I am praying and know God
will see you through this. Your Dad has been so faithful and loving through every trial!
Your babies are beautiful, I pray healing for your family, In Jesus
Name. Amen
Love you all!

 
At January 11, 2008 at 5:52 AM , Blogger jel said...

thank you Amber, for keeping us in touch with what all is going on!

in my thoughts and prayers

((((huggs))))

 
At January 11, 2008 at 9:49 AM , Blogger Pat said...

Oh Amber how my heart goes out to you. I know the pain and exhaustion you are feeling. I went though the same things with my mother - it is hearbreaking to see them less then 100% whole. We never stop praying for all of you, we love you.
Hospice is the most wonderful organization - they will minister to both your mother and to you and your Dad - tell them everything you need, they will do all they can to help. I really believe they are ministering angels sent of the Lord for such a time as you are going through.
Try to get some rest, although I know it's next to impossible...those beautiful children and your husband need you well.
We are here for you ~ always.

 
At January 11, 2008 at 10:23 AM , Blogger Amrita said...

Its really heartbreaking to hear all this.I am hurting for all of you.May the peace of God envelop you and Mother.

 
At January 11, 2008 at 11:03 AM , Blogger Louise said...

Dear Amber, may God give strength, peace and comfort to each of you.

 
At January 11, 2008 at 11:03 AM , Blogger Louise said...

Can your Mom have visitors?

 
At January 11, 2008 at 11:14 AM , Blogger Mrs. Mac said...

Dear Amber ... I've been wondering about Arlene and thank you for posting the updates ... although I am saddened to read of her condition. May the Lord bring you an extra portion of strength to get you through the days ahead.

 
At January 11, 2008 at 12:19 PM , Blogger Amber Land said...

Thank you all for your love and support and mostly prayers.

Louise, she can have visitors. She may not recognize you or she may. She seems to recognize faces more than make much sense. If you want to e mail me I will give you her information. Thanks so much! chamberfultz@yahoo.com

 
At January 11, 2008 at 9:35 PM , Blogger byhisgracealone said...

I hadn't heard from her in quite a while and just thought she was busy/overwhelmed with holidays and all....and have been praying for her every day...I am sad and confused with this news...and feel so helpless...please give her a hug from me...update when you can...bless you Amber and may God's love surround you and your family...

blessings,
donna-in NY

 
At January 11, 2008 at 10:07 PM , Blogger Becky said...

will be in prayers!

 
At January 12, 2008 at 12:38 PM , Blogger Terry said...

Dear Amber...Praying for you in this newest situation with your dear mom and our dear friend...Love Terry

 
At January 12, 2008 at 9:14 PM , Anonymous hebrews 11:1 said...

Dearest Amber,

I am very sad to hear this news of your mother. My grandmother had some awful moments when she was on morphine after her gallbladder surgery, and one of my aunt's was so distressed by the things that my Grannie said which weren't making ANY sense, that she couldn't even visit her. That was a few years ago, but I can remember those tense times like it was yesterday. I think I thanked God sooo much when I could speak with Grannie later, and she was normal!

I pray that the Lord will give you the strength for your trials and trouble. As I have often been reminded since my father was diagnosed with cancer on Thanksgiving Day, remember that God gives us the grace sufficient for each day...but we need to accept his help, and not try to do it on our own. I pray the Lord will comfort you and fill you with His perfect peace. I read in your previous post about your sorrow...I cried for my dad sooo much as I saw him intense pain, and couldn't do a thing to help. I gave my father over to the Lord, and I had such a peace come over me, I can't explain it. Not as though I haven't ever cried since that day...I have my moments, and being one of seven in the house, I find the best place to cry away from everyone is in the shower! :)

May God bless you and keep you.

With Love and Prayers,
Lil Pilgrim Pal (in Canada)
aka Heb

 
At January 14, 2008 at 7:06 AM , Blogger Amrita said...

Dear Amber worried about your Mom and praying. How is she?

 
At January 14, 2008 at 10:41 AM , Blogger Pat said...

How's mom? I will be around to see her as soon as I'm well....my love to all of you.

 
At January 14, 2008 at 11:50 AM , Blogger Terry said...

Dear Amber...I am still praying for you guys and praying the very best for your mom!..Love Terry

 
At January 14, 2008 at 5:06 PM , Blogger Vicki said...

Stopping by to say hello and let you know I'm praying for your mom.

 
At January 15, 2008 at 6:36 AM , Blogger jel said...

flybyhugging!

and would you please give your mom one form me thank you!

 

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