Sunday, February 17, 2008


The doctor came in last night and said that things are looking grim. They took some x-rays and the tumor in her lungs has grown substancially. He said she can't go on for long breathing the way she is. He is putting her in hospice. He doesn't want to move her so hospice will come to her room. My Dad and I are supposed to meet them later today. My Dad said she was crying because she doesn't undestand why she can't come home. She has a home care person so she thinks she should be able to come home. The doctor said she is progressing to rapidly to have someone take care of her at home. He told my Dad that he wants to sedate her so she isn't so aware of the situation. She is very confused which only makes it harder. I think sedating her will be the best thing for her. I hate for her to lay thinking all sorts of awful thoughts. I leave you with these two pretty cool things she said when Chad and I were up there Friday night when she was in the ER. First she was sleeping and woke up and said It is well two times then fell back to sleep. Then she told me and chad she kept waking up to the most beautiful orange flowers. Please pray for our family for strength for whatever the days ahead hold. Thank you all for you prayers and love. update: It's 4:10, I just got home and I am going back to the hospital at 6:30. At 7:00 my Dad and I have to meet with hospice. She was pretty well sedated when I was up there. In and out a few times but mostly out. She is swelling more and more. Her wedding ring is now swollen on her finger. They are going to give her another treatment of lasiks (sp?) to bring down the swelling. I will post again when I have another update.


At February 17, 2008 at 9:51 AM , Blogger Trish said...

Dear Amber... I think it will be best for her to be in hospital hospice. My Brother-in-law went through the same thing and hospital hospice is so much easier for everyone. Keeeping her sedated is good too, she will sleep
and be peaceful. God is giving her visions of glory in those Orange flowers.
I pray rest and peace for you and your Dad. I love you all!
Our prayers are always with you!!!

At February 17, 2008 at 9:58 AM , Blogger Pat said...

Thank you for being so sweet to think of all of us at this time and keep us updated. We love you all so much. I too think that sedation is a good idea, peace and comfort is so important, not only for your Mom, but for all of you to see that she is not suffering. God will provide comfort and strength - continue to lean on him, he is there for you.

At February 17, 2008 at 10:12 AM , Blogger Sara said...

amber, i agree that all the right decisions are being made. while this is the time for you guys to be together, know that we are all just at the periphery standing guard in prayer. your mom is not losing her battle, but gaining her crown and her heart's see Jesus. you are all so very loved. be peaceful.

At February 17, 2008 at 12:05 PM , Blogger Amber Land said...

Thank you guys. I love all of you. I find comfort in your words.

At February 17, 2008 at 12:50 PM , Blogger jel said...


At February 17, 2008 at 12:55 PM , Blogger Becky said...

am in agreement. will continue to pray for your peace! sara said it for us all.
loving you and your family!

At February 17, 2008 at 3:28 PM , Blogger Goldwings said...

My heart goes out to you. I know it is not easy to lose a loved one, especially a Mom, but may you have great peace and comfort in knowing that she's going to be with Jesus.

"And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus." Phillipians 4:7

At February 17, 2008 at 5:23 PM , Blogger Pat said...

Our love and prayers go with all of you.

At February 17, 2008 at 6:13 PM , Blogger OneCuban said...

Dear Amber,
We're praying for your mom and you guys as well. Please remember that whatever happens, the Lord is holding her in the palm of His mighty hand...
Lots of love (and prayers!) from Lissett (at Emanuel Christian Ministry-Windsor, Ontario).

At February 17, 2008 at 8:45 PM , Blogger Terry said...

Dear Amber...I love and respect her so much. And as she said "all is well" and all will be well when she sees her precious Saviour.
Our prayers are going up for you dear Amber and for your family..Love Terry

At February 17, 2008 at 9:36 PM , Blogger Louise said...

I am praying for you all. Our church is also. You and your Dad have made wise decisions and they not only benefit your Mom, they honor the Lord and will be a great help to you and your Dad and your Aunt Peggy.

Your precious Mom is not "dying" as we think the word means ... she's going to leave here and go to live eternally ... without the hindrances that life on this earth can bring.

And one day, in God's perfect timing, we'll all see her again and she'll be smiling that smile of hers and probably asking "what took you so long? Just wait till you see what I have to show you here!"

At February 17, 2008 at 10:08 PM , Blogger Amber Land said...

Thanks Louise,
I am glad you put that in writing. I will probably have to read that for months to come. Thank you for the kind words.

At February 17, 2008 at 10:41 PM , Blogger Mrs. Mac said...

Dear Amber,

I have only known your dear mom from her blog but can tell that she has a servant's heart for the Lord that fills whatever room she is in ... May He give her a peaceful transition as He leads her to a place prepared for her in His mansion 'it is well' ...

His peace be with you and your family too.

At February 17, 2008 at 10:44 PM , Blogger If you can see what I see said...

Your Mom is headed to glory where she will never suffer again, as I said to you last night in the email. I want to encourage you with these scriptures that I know that you will find peace for your Mom. I love her so so much and she has done so much for many people in the kingdom of God. God said HE is healing her, whether its here or there...she will be healed.

My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever. (Psalm 73:26)

For you, 0 LORD, have delivered my soul from death, my eyes from tears, my feet from stumbling, that I may walk before the LORD in the land of the living. (Psalm 116:8-9)

For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future,, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord. (Romans 8:38-39)

If we live, we live to the Lord; and if we die, we die to the Lord. So, whether we live or die, we belong to the Lord. (Romans 14:8)

Gods word is true and faithful. Iam praying for you all and my cell phone is sleeping with me..if you need anything.
Love you sweetie!

At February 17, 2008 at 11:19 PM , Blogger Amrita said...

dearest Amber,
My thoughts and prayers are with you and mother and all the family.

God 's holy angels are surrounding Arlene i know. He loves her very much.

Peace and comfort to you.

At February 18, 2008 at 8:53 AM , Anonymous donna said...

i came to know your mom through her blog and loved her immediately; she showed me time and time again how sweet it is to trust in jesus....and live life with blessed assurance of eternity with Him, safe in His love. my prayers and hugs to you smber and to all her precious family...


At February 18, 2008 at 10:16 AM , Blogger Margie said...


At February 19, 2008 at 12:50 AM , Blogger Terry said...

Messages from three Pilgrim Pals

hebrews 11:1 said...
OH! I don't know what to say...I feel so awful...I recall like it was yesterday the day my grandfather went into hospice. We were visting him at home, he went into the hospital the next day, and into hospice the next, and died two months later (he died of lung cancer).

My prayers are with Bear, Amber, and her family!


February 17, 2008 9:08 PM

Felisol said...
Dear Amber,
I am praying for your Mom even as I am writing. What awful news.
I pray that God may go by your right hand as is his promise. That he'll carry you when you are too tired to move your feet, and then let you be young again, like the eagle.

Precious Lord, take my hand,
Lead me on, let me stand,
I am tired, I am weak, I am worn.
Through the storm, through the night,
Lead me on to the light.
Take my hand, precious Lord,
Lead me home.
Thomas A. Dorsey
and Felisol

February 18, 2008 12:27 AM

Pilot Mom said...
Amber, we are lifting you and your family, as well as Arlene, up before the Lord. May He comfort you and bring you strength during the days ahead, encouragement from believers around you, and peace for when she meets her Lord face to face.

My mother died a year ago this past Jan 29th and it is still fresh in my mind. I feel like I know exactly how to pray for. Be sure that He is beside you, just like Felisol says. He is preparing the way for her coming Home to Him. :)

February 18, 2008 2:38 PM

At February 19, 2008 at 9:19 AM , Blogger Terry said...

More comments from the Pilgrims

Felisol said...
Dear Amber,
I am praying for the Lord to take care of you and your family through these horrible, following days.
I'm begging him to bless you with his peace that supersedes human understandng.
For your mother Arlene I pray that Jesus will embrace her and lift her up to eternal glory.
Numbers 6
24The LORD bless thee, and keep thee:

25The LORD make his face shine upon thee, and be gracious unto thee:

26The LORD lift up his countenance upon thee, and give thee peace.
From Felisol

February 19, 2008 2:12 AM

Julie (aka Little Missionary) said...
Dear Amber,
I was praying last night with a group of ladies - we prayed for two of our close friends who also have cancer and then we lifted to the Lord anyone else who is suffering from cancer, or any terminal illness. Rest assure that the Lord knows all and embraces you mother, Arlene. Thank you for sharing this will us. May our God of all mercy and comfort be with you today and everyday!

Julie (LM)

February 19, 2008 7:04 AM

Dear Amber and Barry and the whole family...we are all praying for your dear Mom and Wife and Gramma....Love Terry

At February 19, 2008 at 10:26 AM , Blogger Amrita said...

Dear Amber your Mom is very precious to the Lord, she is His jewel. he has her in the palm of His hand.


At February 20, 2008 at 2:13 AM , Blogger Terry said...

More encouragement from the Pilgrim Pals ....

hebrews 11:1 said...
I'm praying, client's mom just died of lung cancer that had metasticised to her brain, on January 27th. Her mom went into the hospital on a Monday with breathing problems and was found to have a blood clot in her lungs...she died the following Sunday at 2 am, peacefully, withher daughter's mother-in-law by her side (isn't that a beautiful picture of family devotion?! I loved it when she told me that!). I don't think I've quite gotten over her death yet.

Love and Prayers,

February 19, 2008 8:05 PM

susanwalkergirl said...
Words fail...but our Lord does not. Christ alone.


February 20, 2008 2:03 AM

At February 20, 2008 at 5:49 AM , Blogger jel said...

in my thoughts and prayers


At February 20, 2008 at 8:24 PM , Blogger Sara said...

i love you sweetheart.

At February 21, 2008 at 8:04 AM , Blogger Amrita said...

Dearest Amber and family,
I am so sorry to hear the news and my heart is heavy with sadness.

I knew you Mum through the blog world only for a short time, but her life touched me deeply.I can never forget her love and faith and way she displayed her trust in the Lord.It was such an encouragement to me.

She has joined the huge cloud of witnesses where my Dad is also and they are all worshipping the Lord by the sea of crystal.

Love and warm embraces from my Mom and me.

At February 21, 2008 at 3:19 PM , Blogger Terry said...

For Amber and Barry and the family. our sympathy...The Pilgrim Pals

Terry said...
Oh the beauty of it if it is so...home with her Saviour!

February 20, 2008 4:39 PM

Terry said...
Dear Donna.
She DID! She did fight the good fight and no doubt that she will be meeting many souls in heaven who have been won by her for the King!!
Oh I will miss her so much though!...Love Terry

February 20, 2008 6:42 PM

Pilot Mom said...
Oh yes, we will be missing her for quite some time...I rejoice for where she is!

February 21, 2008 1:41 AM

susanwalkergirl said...
No more pain, no more sorrow, sickness or death. sees her Savior face to face. She is in His presence and glory. Eternally secure forever. Praise God.

February 21, 2008 1:58 AM

David Warren Fisher said...
Arlene is home! We pray that the God of all comfort will strengthen those dear ones who mourn this loss.

We are praying!

The Pilgrim Pals

~ David

February 21, 2008 3:27 AM

Vicki said...
Let's remember those who mourn, not only these next few emotional days, but even months from now when her absence will have its impact on the family.

I can't imagine what a glorious thing it is, that Arlene now sees her Savior face to face!

love you all,

I am with Vicki...our friendship and care with you here Amber does not end!
What a rich heritage your mom has left behind her. We all loved her so much...Love Terry

At February 21, 2008 at 6:56 PM , Anonymous Anonymous said...

Dear Pilgrims,
I am happy that Arlene is home, free from pains and sorrow. I hope she takes time to say hallo to my Dad. Just some months ago she was praying for him...
I feel sorry for her family though. They've suffered a great loss.
I've read "By his stripes" blog, lots of it, over again. I hope Arlene's work will live on in some way. It is a strong testimony about a unique woman.....Felisol


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