I'm Back

I know I've taken a little break but I'm finally back! We are all moved, I wouldn't say fully unpacked but we're in!!! We are loving the new house! It is such a perfect fit for us!

We have been really busy this summer. We are having a lot of fun. Last night we had a little slumber party. K's friend H and Grace stayed the night. K and H have been friends since kindergarten. I took all six kids in the pool last night, we had a blast. Chad had to work but we still had fun. Last week we went to the zoo. We went to a Fourth of July BBQ at Duane and Myra's house. We had a ridiculous amount of fun there. We hit the fireworks a couple times. Not to mention we have been very busy with church. So far we are having a great summer.

Today would be my Mom's 58th birthday. Aid and I are going to go to the cemetery. I haven't went yet. I was going to go on Mothers Day but Chad got called to work and it was raining and i didn't want to take the kids - not yet. I wasn't sure if I was ready to go or not but I prayed about it last night and I feel that gentle reassurance that it is time. I read on my comments that Trish is going with my Aunt Peggy. Thank you Trish, it means a lot to me. My Mom loved you and your family so much.

I have found lately that I really miss my Mom. The fog is starting to lift and I am really missing her. I keep having dreams about her. I have found the weirdest things triggering my memories of her that end in me crying. I am going with it though, I want to be able to express my grief and deal with my feelings.

Tomorrow will be 5 months since she passed on February 20th. On that note I do have some pretty exciting news....we are having another baby!!!!! Our new baby is due on, you guessed it - February 20th. I already know we wont have our baby on that exact day (the doctors are inducing) but this baby will always be a wonderful memory of my Mom's new birthday, the day she entered into heaven. So on the one year mark of our losing her and missing her and celebrating her new life we get to hold our new baby that will always remind me of how majestic God truly is. If it is a girl she will be named Azalea Faith after my Grandma (on my Dad's side) and not only is Faith my Mom's maiden name but as a remembrance of how much Faith she had. Never have I met someone in her circumstance that had so much faith.

I know this post is a little here and there but it's been a long time so I have a lot to say and I am trying to write and respond to 6 kids.